Looking Up

Things are looking up for me [:

This morning I ditched first and second (don't worry, my mom okayed it) to go surfing with my friend. He takes surfing as a class in his college. The class had over 70 people in it, and all they did was come to Newport at 8:00 and surf until whenever. It was amazing! The people there were so nice and they loved to spark conversations.

And the waves were nice too! Once the fog cleared away, the sun was bright and shining and the waves were big and beautiful. It took some getting used to at first, but I eventually managed to catch a few waves.

After school I watched the new Spike Jones film, Where the Wild Things are. Adorable. I admit I cried a bit at the end of it (not because it was sad, but because it was touching). I totally suggest you guys watch it.

So yeahh...I had a great day today with friends. I have a busy weekend ahead of me, and I can't wait.

ONE WEEK until I'm seventeen!! I can't wait!!

[: <3

Confusion Confusion

I'm so confused right now!

I've been losing a best friend, but don't even care, because I realized she isn't the person I thought she was. At the same time, somebody else is starting to bug the crap out of me because I know she's hiding something. Somebody else is pissing me off, because he's s ending mixed signals. Somebody else is still amazing as they've always been, but I don't like them like I used to...

And most confusing of all, the same person I've hated, I've ranted about endlessly, I've been a bitch to, and I've hurt, is the one person that now I can tell anything, the one person I can be myself around, and the one person I truly care about.

Like I said. Confusing.

You know what? This summer I learned a lot about myself. Coming back to school has given me this epiphany. I know who I am and I'm not afraid to let others know that. I feel like I have this new confidence in myself. At the same time, this is a bad thing. I'm starting to realize that some things that used to cheer me up before no longer entertain me. No longer is gossip fun. No longer do I waste my time in front of the television, watching TV shows for the sake of talking about them. No longer do I find random, mindless chatter about stupid things fun or fulfilling. I am not a new person, but the same person I've always been, the person whose been hiding within me afraid to show itself.

I'm ready to face you world.