Rejection

Wow. Just wow. I haven't had a horoscope so dead on in a long time.

ZODIAC SCOPE - Libra

You need to say goodbye to someone, but it won't be as difficult as you fear it will. You will see something today that makes you understand that this fork in the road holds two very rewarding (yet opposite) paths for each of you, so leaving them to go their own way isn't a rejection. You now see that staying on the same path is a mistake for you both. You're entering a strong selfless phase that will keep your heart warm even when you're missing people you love.

I had to reject somebody for prom today. I don't feel good about telling people 'no,' and it left me with this horrible feeling; like I had just crushed the guy. He didn't talk to me for the rest of the night, and I felt like I had just damaged our friendship.

But the horoscope speaks truth. It wasn't as hard as I thought it was to say 'no.' I have been making excuses before this, like saying I would be busy that day, or that I don't have time to think about celebrating at prom, etc. But when I just said 'no,' he understood.

And I have to make it clear to him that we can't be more than friends. No, that would not work. So yes, "staying on the same path is a mistake" for both of us. He's a good friend, but he doesn't mean anything else than that. I don't want him to hurt over me anymore.

And I am entering a selfless phase. What the hell. Recently I've been studying, I've been helping other people, I've been listening. I'm an extremely selfish person ( I'm not afraid to admit it ), but recently I'm trying to fix things with my friends. I don't want all this drama anymore; if things stay the way they are, we're all going to collapse at the end of the year. I don't want that to happen.

So yeah, wow, I'm shocked at how correct this is. What a crazy random happenstance.

Zodiac Rating: 10/10

10 Biggest Ticks

There are certain things in this world that bug the crap out of me. The irritation is just unbearable! So I've decided to make a list of ten of the most annoying things people do. So without further adieu, here's it is.

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10. Movie Talkers

This is one of the most talked about pet peeves out there, and yet people still do it. If I pay 10 dollars to see a movie, the only thing I want to hear is the MOVIE. I don't care if you think the next part is 'hilarious.' I'll figure that out on my own. And it isn't just 'movie' talkers that bother me. It's 'television' talkers. This'll happen at home when I'm watching either House, Medium, Lost, etc. An intense part will begin, and some idiot decides to walk in and talk to the person watching tv with me. They'll ask for dinner, or they'll complain about the neighbors, or ask some dumb question that could wait fifteen minutes. I can't stand it!

9. Parents Insisting I Study

It's funny how they only complain when they, themselves, are ticked off at something. I could have studied for hours and finished all of my homework, but does that stop them? No. My mom will look at my computer screen, or walk in on me watching television, and insist I stop wasting my life away and to start studying. Does she even know what I do every day? Does she even know what I'm even forced to study? No. She just doesn't want me to be enjoying my free time because she's not enjoying hers.

8. Tracksuit Bottoms

I'm sick of this whole athletic-wear thing. I mean sure, you look fine if you're actually in a sport and working out. But there is a reason those shorts are so short, and it's NOT to look trashy. It really ticks me off when they wear these tracksuit bottoms OUTSIDE of their sport. When I go to the supermarket, I don't expect to see some bitchy girl in tracksuit bottoms flashing her legs everywhere.

7. People Who Say They'll Fail

When these people say that they will fail a test, it usually means they MIGHT get a B instead of an A. They'll say things like, "I didn't study at all!" Yes you did. We all know you did. And if that doesn't work, they'll say something like, "I studied for four hours and I'm still going to fail!" No one is giving you sympathy. You'll probably get an A anyways, and pretend to be surprised. Stop making the kids who are REALLY struggling look bad.

6. Elementary Sluts

I've noticed an increase of child whores. They dress in skimpy clothing, wear eye liner when they're like eight, and talk in that horrible valley girl accent as if they were all that. And for some reason they all have the newest phones, the latest i-pods, and their prime concern is who got voted off of American Idol the night before. You're kids. Get a life before you lose it trying to be someone you're not.

5. Unformatted Word Papers

I HATE when I see someone's essay or paper that looks like crap. Even still, in high school, there will be that idiot who thinks that printing her essay in 'fun fonts' is still fun. I can't read your paper, and honestly I'm not going to even try.

4. Reading Over Shoulders

When I'm on the internet, or reading a book, that isn't an invitation for you to join the party. I'm not doing anything interesting, so why do you care? It's an invasion of my privacy.

3. Text Fights

This always happens at least three times a year. The huge text fight. I don't have a phone, so unfortunately I can't participate. It usually involves a group of people texting back and forth every second, expressing their hate for each other in words. In between texts, they will complain to you about that person. And then they'll text some more. Why don't they flipping call the damn person? Or talk to them yourselves? Are you too afraid you'd realize how stupid you sound fighting over something insignificant?

2. Being Ignored

When I talk, about 85% of the time I want to be heard and responded to. If I throw in an idea and nobody responds, it doesn't help much. If you don't like it, tell me. If I start a conversation with you, don't turn to your nearest friend and start talking about something entirely different. I exist. Usually these people think that they're being funny by ignoring me, like it's some kind of game. You aren't funny. Go jump off a cliff.

1. People Who Can't Walk

When I'm walking to class, I don't walk where people are talking and sitting. So why then do you bastards stop and talk where I'm walking? You'll just stand there, like you own that little piece of land you're standing on. How the hell am I supposed to stop walking when you stop, to avoid crashing into you? Next time you do that, you selfish idiot, I'm not stopping. In fact, I think I'll walk a little faster so I can shove you aside.

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Thanks for reading this super-rant you guys. Haha, it gets me angry to even think about these things. So, what makes you tick?

Fairy Tales

Once upon a time.

When I was a child, I believed in fairy tales. One day I was going to meet the perfect guy. Love at first sight. We wouldn't doubt. We wouldn't fight. We'd just be in love. I'd marry him and settle down in the countryside, and raise a family of my own. Life seemed simple back then.

Before I moved here, to California, I pictured the perfect guy. The 'dream' guy. Beachy, friendly, and super hot. I believed that when I saw him, I would instantly fall in love and vise versa.

It makes me laugh to remember these foolish ideas. I still believe in fairy tales, but I did face a huge reality check.

Love at first eyesight is impossible. You can fall in love with someone's looks, clothes, or ideas, but you can't love them truly until you know more about them. I do believe in love at first sight, but it depends on what you're looking with; your eyes or your heart.

And you can't suddenly be together; life never works like that. You don't suddenly have a job. You don't suddenly get into college. You don't suddenly have a family. Everything takes time and effort--things need to cultivate for a while before they move to the next step. As scary as it sounds, you have to start somewhere.

And you can't have a relationship without arguments. No disagreements? None whatsoever? That's impossible. You fall in love with someone for their uniqueness and personality--not how similar they are to you. A lot of people lie in the beginning of a relationship because they want to be equal. They want to avoid disagreements. But it's disagreements that make us so likable in a sense. Opposites attract, not equals.

Let's face it; nobodies perfect. Yet our 'knights in shining armor' seem to be exactly that. So when we find someone who isn't quite perfect, some people pull themselves away. You obviously aren't meant for each other if he isn't the 'Edward' to your 'Bella' ( as Twilight fans would have it ). But I've realized that you can find perfections in imperfectness. It's those cute little things- the way he gets angry when he doesn't understand something, the way he cracks that horribly bad joke that everyone laughs at anyways. Imperfection sounds perfect.

And finally, falling in love is PAINFUL. I don't care what you say, it isn't love unless you sacrifice those walls surrounding your fortress. Your castle. It hurts to let somebody understand you. To let somebody get you.

Love is such a simple emotion, but such a complicated feeling. I hope I find my happy ending soon. It just isn't as easy as I first assumed as a child.

...and they lived happily ever after!