You were everything to her. She did everything for you. And yet you throw her around like some kind of toy, and break her heart, and make her cry, and make her hate herself when she shouldn't. For no reason. You guys were great. You guys were the best together. And you ended it.
I better not be the reason. My answer, if you were to ask, would be YES, YES I DO, but I CAN'T because of who you are. You break things. You break hearts. I can't deal with that. Yes, you're amazing, but if you broke her heart so easily, without any drop of human emotion, what would I be? Just another toy?
And I better not be the reason. Because I hope you know that I'm not like other girls. I don't fall so easily. I hate you. How could you make such a brain dead decision? If you liked me, why didn't you tell me two months ago? Why make things complicated. I can't let what happened to her happen to me. You need to learn not to be such a horrible, horrible person. How could you do that to her?Make her think that you're going to spend the rest of your life with her, and then dump her like she's nothing to you? Did you ever love her? Did you ever mean what you said? Do you ever mean anything you say? You're a walking lie. How could you.
And to you, you amazing, talented person, I hate you too. You were my world until you found her. Until you started liking her. Until she was everything to you. You never knew that I used to dream about you every night. You never knew how much I hoped, how much I longed for you. Am I not good enough for you? What does she have that I don't? You destroyed my spirit. You broke my heart.
And to you, you jerk, you caring, friendly jerk, I hate you as well. You ruined things. You ruined how things could have been. Why did you have to like me? Couldn't you see I clearly liked someone else? Is that why he found someone else? Because of you? I hate you.
And to you, you who used to mean everything to me. You who used to care about me. What happened? I'll tell you what happened. Nothing. You never dared try for me. And I was too afraid to try for you. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of living this lie but I can't go back. We can't turn back time. I really hope I'm not the reason you're so depressed all the time. Because it wasn't just my fault.
(( You don't have to get this at all, you don't have to even read it. You probably don't even know anyone who I'm talking about above. I just needed to let out my flow of emotions. I can't let summer start with all these thoughts running through my head. I had to let them out. Life just sucks sometimes. ))
4 comments:
Awww... :(
It's okay. People can be like that sometimes. :P
"And I can't believe this year is over! Finals are over. Testing is over. Drama is over." So much for drama being over... xD
Hey.... :(
"I'm not like other girls. I don't fall so easily." Are you implying that we do? xD
*tries to figure out who you're talking about*
Could it be who I think it is? D:<
OHNOEZZZZ
Well see you tomorrow! :D
I'm not implying that you're like that tina, haha. But there are a lot of girls who can be easily manipulated, and I'm NOT one of them. I have respect for myself. I don't sneak around with guys because I believe there's more to life than just sex.
And there are four people I'm talking about in this, not just one.
And I know, so much for drama being over. I'm getting the feeling that I can never escape it ):
I think boys and girls are both equally easily manipulated.
Anyways. From what I could make out, this is the situation.
G1: Was dumped by B1.
B1: Dumped G1. You like and hate him.
B2: Likes someone else. You like him.
B3: Likes you. You don't like him.
B4: Used to like you, and maybe does still. You used to like him. Now he's depressed.
This can then be separated into three distinct groups.
1: You like this boy, but he dumped someone else and you don't want to get dumped.
2: You like this other boy, but he likes someone else. Another boy (presumably the friend of the former boy) likes you, but you don't like him.
3: You used to like this boy, but don't anymore, and he used to like you. He might still, which might cause him to be depressed.
This could get messy(er).
My advice as to how to deal with the problem: don't deal with it. Suppress it, ignore it, and deny it.
geez Tina wtf. Pick a side. Emo or not.
and Jeri - sorry that this is such a way mess. I probably have a better clue than Tina [which isn't much anyway] but yeah. It's summer, you won't have to worry about this as much. :3
And things will be different by next year. Cause you know what's funny about it? It's dead!
<3 Mirik
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